Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Really?Am I really so blind to my own self that I need someone else to point out my horrible personality to me before I even admit- no,not even admit,
realize it?Plus,some of my best friends too...Ahaha,I guess I really am blind to myself.I must be so proud and stuck-up,and I don't even notice it.I must be such a horrible person behind some kind of...I don't know,a facade that makes me look nice and sweet.
I mean,they probably don't mean it seriously;just a joke,I guess.I went round and round and round guessing the particular "trait" they were talking about.
I honestly had no idea that I'm a flirt.Really.
Sure,I talk to guys quite often.I may have responded to them quite...iuno...I really don't know...Well,I can say that I gave my friends a hopefully positive answer in a hopefully "I'm shrugging it all off" way,I'm actually quite shocked and hurt and scared.I don't want to be a flirt.I-I mean...UGH,I really want to die of shock and embarrassment and...surprise,MORE SHOCK.I really hate this,I honestly do.
I cannot promise that I will not talk to boys anymore,to me,that's just impossible,but I don't want to be labelled as a flirt anymore...So I'll do my best.
To any guy that's reading this,this isn't a personal attack against any boy or guys in general,it's just me being more...cautious.Please,don't be insulted.
I don't want to do this anymore!
Jenn(aha)
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7:05 AM
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